I really need an advice.
My husband and I are married for 11 years and have a 9 year old boy. After 11 years, I'm so tired, helpless, can't stand anymore, and don't want to talk/discuss to my husband again. I feel disconnected. In those years, he has been doing things for himself, not thinking much about me and my son. Even when I was pregnant, he went out with his brothers or friends and back home like 1-2 am on the weekend. I asked him to spend more time with me and my son. He only spends time with his friends. He thinks about his hobbies. He plays in the band. I let him play in the band for 10 years. He went to practice on the weekend and not come back home until 1-2 am again. I told him to go home early, and he did for about 2 weeks then he is back to his way again. One time when my son was about 2 years old and very sick. He had very high fever about 103F. I was home alone with my son. I was scared and worried. I was talking to a nurse and bathing my son to lower his temp. Couldn't contact my husband. He didn't pick up his cell. Well, I was very angry. And again he said sorry and stayed home for about several weeks. My son cries everytime he goes out drink with his friends. He broke my trust that he had an afair with a lady from the band. I confronted him and he quit that band, but joined a different band.
He doesn't share work at home. We both work full-time. When I got home, I have cook, clean up, .... He just mow the lawn and vaccum one a month. He never mope the floor or clean the toilet, or cook but that's okay. I can do that and I dont get upsad because of this. I don't want to argue anymore. I don't want to see my son cry when he hear me and my hus argue. I feel like he lives for himself more than for us. He thinks about his friends more than us. I have thought about divorce several time, but I really love my son and I want him to be a happy kid. I try not to cry in front of him. I try to not argue and so now I dont care for what my hus does anymore and I am scared that I don't love him anymore. I feel hopeless.
Someone please help me!!! Tell me what I need to do.
