I think I may have a personality or mental ...

First,I'm wondering how old you are?I ask this because I was just like you when I was 14 up until my early 20's.I am now 29 and no longer have this problem,but it's called being narcissistic.Narcissism is only caring about yourself and only bothering with people because it benefits you in some way.I know I've been through it and as you get older this may go away or may not.Everybody's different.I would suggest seeing a therapist,psychiatrist or psychologist and make sure you tell them everything so they can properly diagnose and help you.

It is a very lonely world you live in all by yourself.  You may have what seems to be a mental disorder but may actually be a neurological disorder overlayed with depression.  What I'm thinking may be called Aspburger's  Syndrome. Check it out on the Internet and see your doctor or Mental Health Professional. There is help available .

It sounds like you have classic depression to me. I can't say if you've had this your whole life because your depression may be colouring the way you're looking back at your past. I agree with the other two posters, you need to go to your doctor and ask for a referral to a therapist. I don't think you're empty, if you were empty you wouldn't even have noticed how you're feeling. I have an anxiety disorder, my mother has it too, and anxiety and depression often run hand in hand so I know how it can feel sometimes to just feel numb. You don't find anything funny or beautiful, it's like you're not really taking part and nothing touches you. It's not normal and it can be fixed, you just need to go one more step further than you already have and make an opportunity to fix it. You're not selfish either, you just want something for yourself like you see other people having and the only reason you feel unaffected by someone else's trauma is because you're in the middle of your own and no-one is helping you so why should you help someone else ? Once you get started helping yourself you'll hopefully feel more involved with other people and you'll want to help others. I really hope so, take care.

Dear Xcgael, Okay...first of all, I also have to wonder what your age is. As someone else already mentioned, this could simply be a little immaturity. And I wonder if you truly want help. I say this because I for one find your problem to be somewhat classic,(although few people are aware they possess this problem or would be open enough to admit if they did), calling for only 1 answer. Regrardless to what has caused you to be this way, it is a problem. If you're sincere about wanting help, then I ask that you please read a book, "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Rick Warren is my husband's first cousin, surely you've heard of him, he will be giving the inagural prayer when Obama is sworn in. I would reccomend this book regardless to as to who the author is. It speaks of what you're battling. Many people wander through life detatched, self-absorbed, & highly immature. All of the world is searching, some simply never "find". What you need is focus, a reason for living other than for yourself. You need to learn the true meaning of life which is covered in the book I mentioned. There is NO other way to happiness, contentment, personal fullfillment, joy, peace, rest, & selflessness than through the meaning of life...Jesus Christ. There just isn't. To not know Him & live for Him are people simply going through the motions of life, yet they are not living. They are surviving. You have a purpose, you have a divine purpose! The Lord God doesn't make junk or disposable people! He says that He knew each of us in the womb, Jerimiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you & not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future."  That is beautiful, THAT is a promise, God cannot lie! He meant you just as much as He meant me or anyone else. In the New Testament  Jesus said that He not only came that we might live, but have life more abundant! That means not simply eternal life for an abundant life while on this earth...all that that is good, wonderful, joyous, & blessed. You need this. He is the answer, not only to your problems but to all our problems, great & small. Nothing is too great or small for our God, if He cares for the sparrows & feeds them, how much more would He do for His children?! I have been handicapped since I was 16 mo. old. I spend all the my childhood & young adult life crippled on top of having severe asthma. I wore braces, lived in the hosptial, physical therapy, brace makers, & drs offices throughout my childhood. My problem is progressive, I've been in a power chair now for 7 yrs. Tha pain I suffer is excruciating. My health issue has begun to affect my organs as my bones are sort of "caving in". I spend a great deal of time in bed. My point is this, I learned a long time ago that I have a purpose, a divine purpose, I am important not only to my Lord God but to my family, friends, & the world around me. I learned that happiness can only be found in pursuing using my giftings for the the Lord. I must help others, I MUST, that is life to my spirit, body, & mind! When I am thinking of other, praying for others, doing for others....I am not concentrating on my body or limitations. As a matter of a fact, I don't even feel I have limitations. If I want flower beds in spring (& I always do), I simply get on the ground & crawl to dig & plant, pulling myself back up into my chair when I'm finished. I'm am NOT patting myself on the back, this is ALL grace, the grace of Jesus. I surround myself with the beauty of our Lord & the world He has given us. Find a child, a child that has very little if not even nothing, homeless, poor, sickly, whatever, a child with a need. And give of yourself, a little gift, time reading to them, offer to babysit to help a mother, find something to do for a child in need. It is not Christmas at my house each year unless a child is found who will get nothing & then I make sure that child or children have a nice Christmas. I ask my husband to buy me nothing in order to provide this each year. I personallty don't do the angel trees or stuff like that, I find those who aren't part of those things & won't be getting anything. Take part in a food drive, give to your local food bank, start small but start somewhere, give.  The Lord said it is better to give than to receive, & I can assure you that is TRUE. You will begin to care, you will start to feel differently, see the world in a whole new perspective, it will change you. Join a church, take part in their activities, be part of something bigger than yourself & then give of yourself. Volunteer just 2 hrs. a wk at a hospital, DO something! And also, ask yourself why it doesn't seem to affect you when something bad happens to those in your life? A life unexamined is not a life worth living. Learn to analyze your actions & reactions. Please, get the book, read it, it will change your mind set, your heart, your life. I am praying for you dear one, if you don't know the Lord Jesus, you will, I am speaking it forth, claiming your complete happiness & life's fullfillment. All my love & prayers, Trishahearon

P.S. You said you're empty & that you don't care

P.S. You said you're empty & that you don't care. Sweetie that isn't true, else you wouldn't have written Yedda, pouring your heart out. Trishahearon

One good thing is that you are aware of what is going on in your life and you are aware that you have no emotions, which means that you must know what emotions are and that at one point you must have experienced these emotions and now they have eluded you. There could be a number of reason why you have come to feel the way you do, and why you have detached yourself from your surroundings and from those you love and seemingly from the world. You seem to still have some conscience, because you did not mention about engaging in any damaging behaviors. Your numbness towards what is going on maybe a way you are coping with situations. At this time, it is possible  that you might not be able to handle situations if you were to allow your emotions to surface. It is like being in a coma! You may have experienced some kind of trauma or severe disappointment in your life. You did not mention this. Get with someone you trust and share some of your anxieties or fears (if there are any). It won't hurt to seek for professional help that may reveal some other underlying factors that are not obvious to you right now.