I need psychiatric help. I feel that I am a very sick individual but getting help scares me.

Although you definitely seem to have some severe mental health issues, I seriously doubt that you are certifiable enough to be involuntarily committed.

You have already taken the first step in realizing that you have mental health problems for which you need treatment. Don't let your fears prevent you from getting it.

If you find that you cannot push yourself to take the first step, do you feel comfortable confiding in someone and asking that person to act as your support and backup person? Perhaps that person would be willing to go with you and wait while you complete your appointments until such a time as you feel comfortable going by yourself.

If you don't think you can confide in anyone, I suppose you could always try the self-help book route, but I think that might be a bit difficult based on the disorders you believe yourself to have.

I strongly urge you to do whatever it takes to get your enthusiasm up about getting professional treatment - and then follow through with it! Good luck.

As serious as your problems sound, they are not enough for you to be committed. Only when a person becomes a danger to themselves or to others, do they get committed. Because you are super masochist with weird sexual acts or thoughts, it is not enough. The world has others like you and they just simply try to deal with it quietly through private sessions with a therapist. It is not true that they force you to attend group therapy, unless you are a child molester or sex offender. If you have all those weird sex acts with grown ups (over 18) who also consent to the acts, that is not considered a sex offense. You better make a move very soon to get help from a psychiatrist. Your family maybe loving but they cannot (and neither can Yedda) help you. You need intensive, psychiatric care and medications for your many and complicated mental problems. Good luck.

I know everyone has problems but my son and daughter are gay their both 44 and 45 and they are happly in relationships for 20 years so don't let that stop you from haveing a good life i love my children very much they are really good people and are very sucessful in their jobs  good luck don't worry about what people think you will be surprised the people you worry about will love you no matter what from a mother who knows god bless and keep you............

Everyone has problems so when you say you feel that people know you have problems, just remember that they do to.  You are human and you need help to get you loving yourself and moving in a positive direction.  Maybe change doctors but please realize you have alot to live for.  Don't give up!  Life and the world around us seems terrifying but it can also be such a beautiful place to be.  I wish you all the best.  I am so sorry you are going thru what you are going thru.  But stay strong.  You have family that love you.  The person they love is the man you see in the mirror.  Love him.

I agree with jkgrandpa. You're not that weird. At least 49 million other Americans are gay. Your particular fetish is also not uncommon. The hell with what other people may think. Be yourself. Do see a good Psychologist.

The "weird" part did not refer to his being gay, but only to his fetish of needing and getting off from others urinating and defecating on him. That is definitely weird, even if it is not uncommon and is acceptable. If it makes him happy, it is fine. The problem is that he doesn't seem to accept the way he is and feels guilty about what he does and that is the real reason for my recommending therapy (not for the actual act he does no matter how weird/strange it may be).