Me too.
URI, does Sammie remind you of someone else on these pages?
Sammie, it is time to PAY ATTENTION!
Either suck it up and get it done or shut up about it. Yes, we all care. We have all tried to help. You won't listen.
Quit whining and start listening to yourself. Look into A.A. and learn how to be your own friend, for a change. At this point, fear of a colonoscopy is the least of your problems.
Get busy and get going. And after you do, let us know how you are. We'll be more than happy to hear what you have to say - so long as it's something NEW.