Ok, well, I been talking to this guy for about yr and a half now..We are not together..we do see eachother here and there for ya know the good stuff :) I really do have deep deep feelings for this guy though. Him and I are so off and on mostly off then on say the least..Its usually me breaking it off with him though.I cant explain why I do that, I just do. In the month Ive been with him in just a short period of time we have been threw alot. I got prego with his child for about 1month after dating..I already have an 8yr old and being already a single mother I didnt think I could take care of another one just yet w/out being married. so, we both werent ready to have a child. It seems after I got pregnant He became distant towards me..His phone calls, and txt werent coming that much anymore, and when I would txt him before he would txt right away and now it takes him hours to get back to me. We just kinda lost touch with eachother..and I remember what he told me after I had my abortion, and I swear those words he told me is still stuck in my head he said.. "if we couldnt keep our child, then why should we stay together?" Im not mad that he told me that I totally understood what he meant by that. Anyway, So, him and I use to talk for hours and hours on the phone and I would see him about 2xs aweek and then BOOM everything just stopped! I wasnt ok on how everything was going with us. I was really sad for awhile about us..but I pulled threw and took it how it was... so, just the other day he txt me and asked if I wanted to come over and see this band he liked that was playing by his house.. I did. Everything was going fine. I did notice that he was different though...I havent seen him in almost 2months and in that 2months he started smoking ciggs, and he kinda was dressed different too. God, when him and I 1st met he was a total country boy he still has his accent but, his style in clothes def changed and his persontily was totally different too. He was more loud and crazy! I dont know what got over him..I guess moving from a small town to Chicago could prob change a person I guess.. I met dude before he moved to Chicago we met on myspace and when he came out here I was his 1st friend he had... So, before him and I went out that night I had acouple of shots and he doesnt really like when I take shots he tells me he doesnt like how I act. When we got the the bar everything was going good him and I were dancing and stuff. Then, these guys came over to talk to us. They were all from the Navy and my guy was in the Marines so all the guys were talking and having a good time. Their was this one guy who was there and I think he kinda liked me even though I was with a guy there. Im not sure if he did. Him and I (the other guy) were talking and chris (thats my friends name) didnt really seem to care. We all ended up leaving in the same cab. When the cab driver dropped off those Navy guys I had to use the bathroom so bad. I asked the one guy I was talking to if I could use the washroom they were staying in a Hotel, and dude said it was fine. He walked me in there. Chris stayed in the cab. We were gone for about 5mins and when I came back to the cab...Chris freaked the F out on me! He was yelling and screaming on the top of his lungs! Chris was telling those Navy guys to take me home, he wanted me to get the F out of the cab that Im a drunk and basically calling me a slut all because I used the bathroom! Chris had me in tears. I havent cried that bad in a very very long time. The Navy guy was scared that chris might do something to me when I got back to his place because how he was acting. I did give the Navy guy my number before all this happened. Chris knew he had my number too, and at the time he didnt care. Chris was being cool until I used the bathroom and something came over him after that, he was going nuts! I couldnt believe how he was acting,,I never seen him like that before! He never called me out of my name until that night. Chris was yelling at me the whole ride back to his place and I still was in tears and he didnt care that I was crying. When him and I got back to his house..he was trying to throw me out. I couldnt leave to go home, cause I was so drunk! I also live a good hour from home. He was still at it with me..I kept telling him to please stop yelling at me..he wouldnt! He brought up my childhood, saying that I dont know how your soo F'd up you musta had a bad childhood, that Im always gonna be single, No guy is gonna want me..He was talking on the phone to someone telling them to get me the F out of his house that he didnt want me there. I thought maybe he was talking to the police. I dont know for sure though. I did hit him..I hit and punched him for acting that way to me. I was crying for about 1hr straight that i couldnt breath... I was lying on his bed rolled up in a ball just crying telling him to stop being crazy! He finally stopped, and he came right by me in bed and put his hand on my back, and I turned over and we started having sex! I dont know why I did that because he was being so mean to me. The next day, he was still on what happened and I was telling him that he was in the wrong for acting like that. Then once again he started freaking out and telling me to leave. He hurt my heart so much Im so sad over this that I cant eat or sleep. He said I made him look like a fool in front of those Navy guys. I dont know he prob was saying alot of mean shit to me, but I was too wasted to really remember. What does ppl think about him acting like that? Do you think he had a right to be mad and act like that? All i did was use the washroom and was gone for 5mins... He wont answer my phone calls either. What should I do? I need advice!
