My step father was/is a rich pedophile. My sister and I estranged (I am 40, Our mother didn't like sex. Our real father cheated on her when I was in her belly then died before I was a year old. Emotionally detached from me, I never got her attention, help with homework, no Mommy/dtr time. My baby book empty, cold abandonment,neglect, and sacrificing me to a devil for her greed testifies her revenge on my father for wandering. I was Honor Roll garbage at the end of the driveway. He'd throw her $500, she n sis go shopping n leave me. I moved 1000 miles away at 17. Sis told her 3rd hubby and mom at age 20+ Mom waited 3 years, called to inform me of divorce. Asked her why she never asked me if I was abused too? So my question/advise???? why doesnt Mom care about my "PAIN AVOIDANCE", ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY, LIVELONG ABANDONMENT AND NEGLECT, Belittled, abandoned, ignored, and sacrificed so she could go shopping for ...the sake of spending money...never brought me back anythink. But sis got alot...just by saying I want...Guess she was better in bed than me... I was 5. Dont care enough to spend 10,000 on my rehab. Tell me not to contact my sis, a fragile Alkie, about to lose #3. I am never invited back to visit for holiday. My kids get nothing, Sis's get new cars. Blind that I shut up my wounded child and suffer alone 1000 miles away. Then guilt trip when I dont send gifts for Mother's Day or her Birthday...Dont matter what he did to me. I need to get over my hatred for her. It's killing me, I stayed in a loveless marriage until my kids were old enough to never suffer a stepfather. And no, I have never had therapy or remarried. if time to respond, dont say go to a shrink. I trust no one. Never had anyone to trust. ...I was raised witha narcissist mother and sister a pedophile, and I guess you would call me love addict...seeking what I never got... from those who see me as an altruistic and repeat the abuse. If anyone else out there has suffered these pains, or has wisdom to overcome, I need your prayers and energy...Looking at EFT to self heal...and I gave it to God. I cant change it, so I have to change how I think about it. May the angels frolic in your dreams...
