Please Help I am depressed.

Sorry for your depression. I think if i lived where you do and worked for the government i'd be depressed too. Is there something you would enjoy doing. If so, that's where you should be looking for work. Your parents aren't you and making them happy is ruining your health. I blame my parents for a lot of wrongs in my life too. And because of there demands on what my life goals should have been many many years ago I never followed my own dreams. Years later they are dead and I am suffering. You are still young! Do what YOU want in your life and happiness will follow. Good luck and God Bless You 

It is ok to see a psychiatrist if you need one. And you certainly need one. But you never have to tell your job about it. It should be between you, your family and your doctor. It sounds like you have very low self-esteem of yourself. If you don't like what you are doing, why not try other things to make a living (even if it displeases your parents or pays less). I know in Asian culture, the children try to always please the parents, which is really tough when you are an adult and longing to be free and happy. Continue your treatment and discuss these issues with your psychiatrist. He might give you some insight into your condition. And make an effort to enjoy life, things and people. Don't be overly sensitive. It only hurts you. You have to reach out to others. It is not the other way around. Try it and you may find some happiness or at least satisfaction. Life is not easy for most people in the world in any country but many still try to find some joy in it.

If I were you, from the way they have treated you, I don't believe I would disclose any medical records to the office unless forced to do so. 

 If you can function in the govt. job and do the job well, then you will be better off NOT telling more than you have to tell. 

This is simply my own opinion.  I am not a professional. 

Perhaps you should print out the post you have written and make an appointment with a professional in the field of psychology and see what advice they would give you. 

 Best of everything.  Keep trying and as the old saying goes, "don't let the turkeys get you down."  NJoy

Hi... I'm not as experience as you(only 21yrs) but I just wanted to add something...

In my opinion,you have become even more depressed when you have seen the qualifications of your collegues on that blog...

 I would like to tell "you should never compare yourself with other as it is an insult to yourself"....My tutor once told us this in class and I think it is true... By comparing yourself to those ahead of you, it is normal that you will feel small and unhappy... Be what you are and be happy with what you have....

Until you do not convince yourself that you are as able as your collegue,you won't be able to move... I understand you perfectly but you have to do it...

Another thing is that they may be better qualified but thats not all you know...Often in school,colleges and universities: Some teachers may be very qualified but they don't know

1)how to pass on their knowledge...

2)they do not have good manners /their way of talking is not good

3)they are not models

Well your qualification may be not as high but I'm sure you have other qualities...

Just don't care about your them and focus on your work.

Concerning your juniors never let them know about your depression....

And if possible try to be punctual and don't be absent too many days as they will turns it against you saying that you are inefficient... Don't do anything that they might use against you...

Hope I have been able to help you...