HELP

I will help you by saying you need to help yourself. Get to a counselor and psychiatrist. I see paranoia and depression. Of course, this is just a suggestion. If you choose not to change, the way you feel will not change.

I agree with Donna. You must first give yourself permission to make your own choices of whether to be happy or let others decide for you. You sound a bit overwhelmed and need to allow yourself some 'me time' to snap out of this vicious cycle. A good psychotherapist is a great suggestion. Good luck. Hug yourself, too. You are no less miraculous than all of us.

I agree with both of the above suggestions. Mental health is a scary thing and if left untreated it could prove harmful. However if what you are saying is true and not a mental health issue you need to confide in someone and go to a safe place like a family member they are unknown of in a different state and if the problem still continues than it is one of two things you have a big problem or it is all in your head.

Dear Friend, you apparently need medical care. As a bipolar disorder patient, needing psychiatric medications, you sound that you need help. If I were you, I would seek it before something terrible happens to you. Michael Joel Held

being that you posted this question , had people answer you, and you not rate any of the answers as helpful, you probably feel as if they're in on the conspiracy. you appear to want to be ageed with and not do what is in your best interest. reality seems to have escaped you. good luck in your world.  everyone is out to get you! that makes my life safer.