for so long i thought boys were the problem, nowadays i'm starting to question myself: why am i 17 and still never had a boyfriend?
i've been asked out a few times and actually went on some of the dates (most of them failed) and when it comes to the ones that didn't fail it was always me that stopped responding.
i had a lot of 1-night-stands (never saw any of them again cause when stuff happen the guy will not call me in the next few days simply cause he thinks i'm cute!though i never slept with any of them, never slept with anyone actually, and didn't let them go too far) and i liked a few guys, but the ones i like seem and/or are unreachable (ex: i was 12 he was 18 or i liked a friend who turned out to be gay in the closet, another 1 had gf etc)
maybe my standards are too high (personality wise) or maybe i'm afraid of commitment, don't know...
and i'm really confused and bothered cause ALL of my girl friends have bf. and i don't even have friends that are boys!
i don't even know how to deal with them i don't even know how to talk to a boy cause i'm the type of girl who in 1 simple word is freaky. i'm unusual everyone who knows me tells me so, i know so. i do crazy stuff i act like myself and i don't care who sees; a little free spirited let's say (not 2 crazy just a little above the limit) not 2 much make up, decent clothes but i just have a freaky way of expressing my thoughts: active, very sarcastic, stubborn and very philosophical (cause i'm very intellectual). and this SEEMS to freak most boys out. but on the other hand what no one knows is that i'm insecure (cause i'm sensitive, chubby, have facial hair(do remove them but still) some health problems...) and have a low self-esteem.
and i just' don't know what to do! i'm majoring in psychology (yes i'm a college student) yet i don't know what to do! funny huh?
any advice PLEASE!